We made the choice to move out of our old home on Monday, yes as in 3 days from today. The packing, loading, and moving itself isn’t such a big deal; the bigger issue is that our new house won’t be ready for us to move into until May 24th. Soooooo… we will be spending most of the next 3 weeks in a hotel room or at Grammy’s house. Not ideal.
As I was working on my to do list today before the movers come I stopped in my tracks and decided I wanted to remember this house. I grabbed my camera and took pictures of all the rooms and yes I cried as I took photos of the kids rooms are remembered them as babies laying it their cribs. I cried in my room looking at my bed and thinking about all those sleepless nights nursing a baby and all the nights I tried to sleep sitting up because pregnancy heartburn is so awful. I sobbed some more in my kitchen thinking about the meals I cooked with G in the moby wrap or the dinner we ate with L in the bumbo seat at the table with us. I cried, I let it all out and I cried… not because I love this house so much, but because this is my children’s first home. There won’t be another home like this one. I cried because they are growing up and I feel like and I am missing it somehow. And I cried because that’s me, I cry.
After the crying my head was clear. I thought about the weeks ahead, packing, staying in a hotel, the 12 hour drive to our new home, more hotels, unpacking, and our first night in the new house. None of it will be easy, but that’s life. I must put a positive spin on this! Staying in a hotel isn’t ideal, but at least I don’t have to clean. It gives me more time to spend having fun with my kids swimming in the pool, going to the park, eating a picnic lunch, and just staying in the moment with them. Instead of trying to keep them busy so I can do dishes or mop I can enjoy watching them play together or even play along. Sleeping over at Grammy and Grandad’s for a few nights isn’t perfect either, too much sugar and not enough sleep make kids (and mama) a bit cranky. My in-laws are wonderful, they love my children more than anything and they always make us feel welcome. I am planning on taking the kids to the children’s museum by their house as well as a trip to Farmer Tom’s to ride some tractors, but honestly my kids just love hanging out at Grammy’s house with all her toys!
This move is going to happen, how I deal with it is totally up to me. Saying good-bye to this house will be hard, but I love our new house and I can’t wait to get there. I hope there are some families with preschool age kids near by so we can make friends… but that is a whole other post.